Green Baby essential cotton leggings

I find baby/toddler trousers such a pain. They’re either too long so Elliot will step on the cuffs and walk himself out of them, or so bulky he looks like he’s fighting them with every step. All of this goes doubly if you’ve got a crawler. All those pointless pockets and fastenings just look so uncomfortable when they fall asleep in the pushchair too.

How excited was I when I discovered the Essential Cotton Leggings from Green Baby? Not only made with organic cotton, by a fair trade project in India, but they fit perfectly. They are shaped to Elliot’s legs without being constricting, he can crawl and walk and sit and fall asleep, looking very comfortable indeed. Leggings on a boy? Of course leggings on a boy, they are all shaped the same at this point anyway. And you can get them in several colours and stripes! Yes, at £9 it is not the cheapest pair of trousers you can find, but they are well-made and I find myself pulling them out twice as often as his other trousers. Besides, isn’t it time we owned up, at least a little bit, to how much it takes to make these things with a living wage (hopefully) for the people making them? I think so.

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August

My Dad, a month before he died

August is not, historically, a great month for me.

We moved several times when I was small, so I never seemed to have friends around during the summer holidays. I often imagined I would meet some other girl who would be my perfect friend – but by the time August rolled around I had to admit that wasn’t going to happen. The days until I started school again stretched ahead of me, uncomfortably sticky and etched with boredom.

When I was 24, my father died suddenly of a heart attack, leaving an incredibly raw-edged hole in my life. One of his friends explained the feeling of intense grief to me as: “there is no getting over it. There is only what came before it and what came after, and everything will be different now. You learn to live with it.” I phoned some of his colleagues and friends to tell them. I wrote his obituary. These are things you never want to have to do at that age. Because he and I had started a business together the year before and it wasn’t yet off the ground, I was also effectively out of a job.

But now, there’s Elliot. My father died on the 30th of August, and my son was born in the early hours of the 31st of August.

The pain of not being able to share Elliot with my Dad is still so acute, I can’t think about it directly or I get dizzy. It feels so supremely unfair.

A year ago today, I was in the birth centre in Queen Charlotte’s Hospital in labour, and below my window was the throb of a reggae sound system van having taken some wrong turns from Notting Hill Carnival. It circled back a few times, rattling the windows gently with the dub. I couldn’t help but think it was my Jamaican-born father, doing some beyond-the-grave traffic direction, to make me laugh.

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In praise of Royal Festival Hall

Did you know there’s a huge building in the middle of central London where you can go and hang out, for free? You can bring your own food to eat there. There are free loos, and baby change. There are quiet areas with carpet for crawlers, big spaces to run in, sometimes free music and sometimes a big fountain to run through. And it’s open pretty much every day, exceptions being Christmas Day and not much else.

The foyers of Royal Festival Hall have been open to all since 1983, the doors thrown open all day as part of the (then) Greater London Council’s Open Foyer programme.

A little tour of one of my favourite public spaces, in a parent-centric mindset:

Coming at Royal Festival Hall from Waterloo, there is a lift up to the main terraces, it’s between ping pong and Canteen. It drops you off next to Nelson Mandela’s statue. The foyers you can reach here are great for running little ones, with the sunken ballroom area to contain them. There are often installations here, and sometimes a stage. February half-term (Imagine Children’s Festival) and Christmas are a great time for this, there will almost always be something little one friendly down there. There are tables and couches to rest, and you are welcome to bring your own food. If you want a coffee, get it from the bar on the ballroom side if there are queues at the cafe. There is free water sitting in a jug on the bar, with plastic cups.

If you have a sleeping baby, or need a calmer place for a little one to crawl, take the lifts up to Level 4 – the interval bars up there are open all day and carpeted. If you head to the Green Side (the one facing the glass office block) it will be quieter, but you do have to navigate a short staircase, take the lifts in the corner by the Ticket Office to get there. Level 4 on the Blue Side (facing the Hayward) is also nice, but there are more people. The stone facing on the walls next to the auditorium doors is fossil limestone. If you get up close, you can see little creatures in cross-section all through it.

There’s also the Saison Poetry Library on Level 5, on the Hayward side, best to take the Glass Lift to get there. There are sound booths to listen to poetry readings plus books for little people as well. The staff are lovely and will help you find anything.

In the summer, there is more seating round the side of Queen Elizabeth Hall, plus a nice tactile metal Henry Moore sculpture that children love clambering over.

Why do I know all this… well, I used to work there. When the Hall was refurbished, I wrote some pieces for the celebratory programmes about the unique features of the building. Taking your lunch every day in the place will also give you a really good idea of where it’s quiet and where it’s not! Now that I’m a mum, I see a new side to the Hall – it is one of the easiest places to visit when you’ve got a baby. And I’m very thankful for such an inclusive, open space in the middle of the tight corners of central London with wall-to-wall people who are not interested in getting out of the way of your buggy.

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Here’s where the stay-at-home part kicks in…

Quite a few months ago I quit my job. Quitting your job whilst on maternity leave feels a bit like typing with your eyes closed, something is happening but you’re not sure what at the time.

All of the mum friends I made in the early days are heading back to work in the next couple of weeks. Talk has understandably turned to nursery settling in days, anxiety about going back, that kind of thing.

So now I’m starting to experience to what it’s really like staying at home. It’s come home to roost how much tighter money is now too. This all seemed a bit more like a fun challenge when it was on a spreadsheet. My opinions about organics and locally sourced food comes smack up against the realities of a much smaller grocery budget, and I’m attempting the ‘less, but better quality’ approach.

What I’m coming to realise though, is I like being at home, doing things slowly. I like spending an hour or so knitting Elliot’s jumper every night, I like baking bread, I like fitting together an economical yet (hopefully) interesting and nutritious weekly meal plan. Playing the Bach cello suites draws a thread between you and every other cellist through the ages, and now I feel connected to generations of women before me who baked bread for their loved ones.

It’s easy to define staying at home as ‘not going back to work’, thinking only of the community of your old workplace, but there’s something to be said for building a small, warm community at home too.

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Babyled weaning update

About six months ago I wrote about starting Elliot on solids. We took the babyled weaning route, and six months on, I can whole-heartedly say it has been fun and relatively easy. It’s a constant pleasure seeing Elliot discover new foods, and the only barriers are the ones in my own mind, he seems copacetic with pretty much everything I hand over for him to eat. Or, more likely to be the case these days, he grabs from my hand!

Many people ask me what he eats in a given day, so here’s a sample menu:

Breakfast
Scrambled egg made with cream and butter, no salt
Toast fingers with cream cheese (I make my own bread generally, so I know what’s in it)
A prune or two
Half a banana

Lunch
Fusili pasta
Leftover bolognese sauce from the night before, homemade with no salt added (with beef, veal and pork mince in it, as well as courgette, carrots, onions, etc)
Shredded raw courgette leftover from a recipe I was making
Carrot sticks

Snack
Slice of mature cheddar in pieces, as stolen from Mummy’s snack
Organix rice cakes

Dinner
Same thing as we’re having, for instance – chicken stirfry with soy sauce added after Elliot gets his portion, including the rice or noodles; roast chicken, potatoes and broccoli; pasta with pan-fried salmon and peas. A pot of Rachel’s yoghurt, or any full-fat yoghurt with no refined sugars.

Occasionally I will give him something quite salty, like halloumi or sausage, but not a lot of it and only once in awhile.

The above example doesn’t mean this all goes into Elliot. Like all little people, he has days where he eats everything and demands I rummage in the fridge for more and days where he throws most of it on the floor or at the dog. I follow the ‘in a week’ idea – as long as he has a mostly balanced intake across the week I don’t worry about it. Just leaving him to get on eating what he wants, he seems to take what he needs. Our mealtimes are mellow (for the most part!) and I barely take anything except rice cakes when we go out as he just shares whatever I’m having.

That being said, we always eat together. He never has a meal on his own, ever. We sit at the same table and share. I think this has made a big difference, because if he’s not showing any interest in something in his dish, if one of us takes a bite of it and hands it back, he almost always then eats it himself.

And no, don’t feel like you have to bake your own bread. I am one of those crazy food people who like to do things like that.

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The properly useful things for a new baby

For the life of me, I could not figure out what I needed when Elliot was born. Like really needed, not just pretty or he might need it once but there’s actually plenty of time to get it. These are the things I hurriedly ordered online in a crazed 3am shopping rush, or managed to buy beforehand and praised my forethought endlessly to anyone who would listen. I do this for you, my friends who are pregnant, so I don’t have to copy and paste the same email 15 times…

Nursing pillow
This seemed like a waste of time to me initially, but then my back started aching and my arms were going to drop off. Because you do a whole lot of carrying this little creature, and at an average of 3.5kg or so, that gets a bit heavy. You’re also paranoid about dropping them, for obvious reasons, so you’re not being all ergonomic about it, but stiff armed and slightly panicked. So when it comes to the umpteenth time to hold them while they breastfeed, having a u-shaped pillow in your lap that just holds them up so you don’t have to is absolute bliss. These are everywhere in NCT sales because you only need them until they get a bit bigger. Supposedly you can use them to help your baby sit up, but I’ve not known anyone to bother with it.

Nursing chair
I desperately wish I had gotten mine sooner, because it has been one of the best buys ever. Yes they are a bit ugly. Trust me, you won’t care at 4am and you’re exhausted from walking and swaying with a non-sleeping baby. The idea you can slump into this comfy chair that glides back and forth with a minimum effort is so magical. Kiddicare has a great range that starts quite cheap and their delivery is incredible – next day for free with 1 hour delivery windows.

Feeding bracelet
I can’t find a UK distributor for Milk Bands anymore, but they made the first three months less chaotic. It’s a silicone wristband like those charity ones, but with little markers you can move around to remind you of the time of your last feed. You’ve got it on you all the time and if you’re passed out having a nap, your husband can check it without waking you up. It also tracks which side you fed from last if you’re breastfeeding, by flipping it round.

Sleeping gown
I found getting Elliot into sleepsuits with a million poppers a real pain, and he wasn’t keen either. Nothing fully wakes a doszy baby like fussing with poppers. My mum sent me a sleeping gown from Canada, and I tracked them down here afterwards because it was so much easier for middle of the night nappy changes as they have a long open bottom kept mostly shut by elastic. Green Baby does a nice one, and there’s a kimono-style one if your baby hates having things pulled over their head.

Beaba Up & Down Chair
This is a bit pricey, but we found it incredibly useful. Instead of one of those bouncer chairs that sit on the floor, the Up & Down chair can extend to about table height. It has a harness, so you can strap in your little wriggler, and it reclines as well. Elliot loved it because he was in the middle of the action all the time. I would drag it over to the kitchen so he could see what I was doing and I could talk to him. You can rock it with your foot or the handles. Everyone knows you’re not supposed to put those bouncer chairs on a table or couch, but it’s really tempting so you can see them properly. You don’t have to mess around with any of that with this chair. JoJo Maman Bebe has it for £120.

There are many other things you need, of course, but these are the I-wish-someone-had-told-me ones I discovered. What did you find the most useful in those first few months?

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Almost one

This is the cake I made for our NCT group’s collective first birthday party a few days ago. It’s a carrot cake with cream cheese icing, and all the babies (and parents) loved it. I got a bit obsessed with getting it right and made a couple full-sized, fully iced prototypes. My neighbours loved the sight of me with another huge wedge of test cake!

Now Elliot’s actual, proper birthday is fast approaching and I’m also obsessing over what to make, on a smaller scale, for our little family of three celebration.

This whole month has felt super-imposed over this time last year. Elliot was officially due on 18 August, tomorrow. I remember feeling like every moment everything would change and I would go into labour. It would be another two weeks before he was born, after four sweeps and being booked in for an induction that never happened.

One of my favourite moments around this time was terrifying a Starbucks barista who conversationally asked me when I was due, and my response was: ‘About a week ago actually.’ He looked like he wanted to run a mile.

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Walking

Elliotwalking

Elliot took his first steps about a month ago, and since then all he has wanted to do is walk walk walk. Now he spends every morning doing laps of the living room with the dog's toy held high, giggling. It's an amazing change – all of a sudden he's not really a baby, but a wee little boy. Elliot is happier too, just before he started crawling he went through a frustrated and grumpy phase when he couldn't get going how he wanted to. He's thrilled to be able to chase Gusdog around, and sneak up on him too. He is not a quiet crawler, tha-thump, tha-thump, tha-thump, the dog always has plenty of time to move. Now his fwump fwump fwump toddler shuffle sometimes goes undetected by the terrier radar, and Gus gets a well-meaning but rather enthusiastic pat on the back.

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Finally, a decent nursing bra

Tshirt nursing

I have been constantly mystified that nursing bras seem to be flimsy, flappy things. Considering you’re often hauling around big bags of milk in there, why would they not give you some decent support? And the SEAMS. Why on earth do they put a seam across your nipples when they are being tugged and if you’re really lucky, bitten, many times a day?

I had despaired ever finding anything decent, when I spied this post over on Not So Yummy Mummy about the M2B T-shirt Nursing Bra from Mothercare. Finally. A normal bra that happens to have nursing clips. The cups are structured with that thin layer of foam that gives you some shape without, crucially, big nasty seams. And, possibly the best bit, they are £16. I went out and bought two, and I have given up on all my other nursing bras. They are brilliant.

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Never enough containers

Tommy tippee potsI am obsessed with containers. My old work colleagues would roll their eyes when a yet another Lakeland box would arrive in the post room with a new selection of salad boxes, banana guards and citrus savers.

It’s no surprise I am constantly searching for the best Elliot snack container, then. One of my mum friends pulled out one of these Tommy Tippee Food Pots the other day, and I was transfixed. It’s a perfect cucumber stick size, and exactly the circumference of a baby rice cake. The lids stay on well without also being impossible to remove. Plus, they are £1.97 for three (!) from Ocado (or your local Waitrose). That beats Lock & Lock by a mile.

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